Have you ever not wanted to do the thing you know you need to do because it’s necessary to improve your life, job, relationship, or yourself?
I walked into my house this morning after dropping Magnus off at Montessori with huge resistance.
It was the chest tightening kind that you will do anything to avoid (like writing this blog post) instead of doing the thing you need to do.
The worst part? I’ve already put it off a day.
I was actually supposed to do it yesterday.
Now I feel even more pressure, and of course, more resistance.
What I really should be doing (instead of writing to you) is making a bunch of videos that I can share across multiple social media platforms to give really good free content while expanding my reach.
It’s all handwritten in my messy handwriting on lined pads of recycled paper.
It should be easy, right?
Just a bunch of quick 5 minute videos on personal development, yoga, and meditation…and now that it’s planned…I don’t want to do it AT ALL.
Every time I need to stretch myself it happens.
It’s happened a thousand times within my business and even more within my relationships, and personal growth (btw, it’s the all personal growth).
The last time I my chest was in knots was last fall when I decided to start teaching a live yoga class on my FB page once a week.
It took so much courage because I felt so exposed.
What if people didn’t like it?
What if people didn’t like it and SAID that they didn’t like it?
What if it’s (or I’m not) as good as the fancy celebrity teachers?
All the fears. All the doubt. All the resistance.
I was worried it would mean:
I’m not good enough. People will reject me. It means something about my worth.
And then, I did it.
And do you know what? It was fine…and actually kind of fun!
It was so much fun that I decided to create a whole yoga membership site and already have 100 raving excited subscribers.
Now, making videos is just a part of my week, and I get to hang out with some of the most wonderful women on the internet because of it.
It was a big deal, now it’s not.
But making these NEW videos feels like a big stretch again. I’m casting my net farther, and that opens the doors to more criticism, more risk of failure, more resistance.
And I also know, that once I get over the initial resistance, this will just be another part of how I help people and help them get to know me.
The more we learn how to dance with resistance (who’s true name is fear), the less it holds us back from the lives we want to be living.
We open the doors to more loving authentic relationships, more satisfying work, and more meaningful lives.
And it starts, by starting to do it.
So, I’m hopping off my computer now and heading to my living room to shoot some videos. How are you facing resistance (aka fear) today?
Do you have a story of facing fear? Or just want to give me some encouragement? Tell me in the comments below!